Friday, September 23, 2016

Degree Life

Never thought i'll update about this but then i got to.
Just like i expected, degree life is obviously going to be different from my foundation life. Even if it's at the same place. But then, i don't think i'll hate the change this much.
I mean, i know i'm going to meet and spend time with different people, but life is just too hard nowadays.
The people here are so...  you know, too nice.
Too nice it's hard for me to adjust myself.
I am not a nice person. I repeat, i am not a nice person.
My jokes are too harsh for these people. But it's not their faults anyway.
I'm just saying it's too hard for me. My close friends know how much i'm so straightforward in saying things like i am so mulut main lepas, i don't hide things behind people and things like that.
In other words, I'm used to being harsh and everything that's not nice.
Is this considered as culture shock? Lol i guess so.
And this including the seniors here. They're so kind and nice i don't think i'm nice enough to get close to them since i use harsh jokes towards my seniors as well, as a sign that i'm close with them.
P/s: i miss all the seniors in k13 though.
Like i said, the people around me in my degree life doesn't really mingle with guys while i cannot live my life without having guy friends. Lol that sounds so wrong but you know what i mean if you know me quite well.
I always get those weird looks from the girls whenever i'm talking to guys it's so uncomfortable ok.
Another thing that i'm trying to adjust myself to is living with only one roommate. Before this during my foundation, there are 6 people in one room. So this is kind of hard for me.
Another thing that's obviously different is how busy i am during my foundation life compared to degree.
At this new college of mine, i can't really participate in many things. Like they choose the ajk and everything randomly instead of who's interested to do it.
Meanwhile back in the day, they'll ask who's interested to do this and that's how i'm able to show myself and volunteered and everything.
And here's an interesting fact: i'm not singing anymore.
Well, it's not like i don't want, it's because i can't. This college ban girls from entering singing competition so i don't really know what am i going to do here cause like that's the only talent i have anyway.
I don't do sports, i don't dance, i don't act, so what am i supposed to do?
But still, i'm trying my best to get involved in many activities. 
Pray for me guys, pray for me. I don't know if i can really stand this.

Assalamualaikum, zulaikhanurputri ♥

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

Bucket List

I bet everyone has their own 'things to do before i die' or you can call it bucket list.
All this while i only think of it inside my head, but never wrote it down so this is my first time.
Maybe you have the same wish like me? Who knows if we can do it together huhu
  • Traveling with my mom and my bros. Now that my bros are big enough and can almost hahahahahaha i repeat, almost take care of themselves, i think it is time to go somewhere like maybe Indonesia with them. 
  • Backpacking with friends/strangers. I find it quite difficult to plan a holiday with my friends as most of them doesn't get much freedom as i get so i'm okay with backpacking with strangers. It sounds fun though. I mean, you know those backpacking club? Yeah, i can join them but let's talk about that later because i'm still trying my best to plan with my friends. I really want to at least once going on a holiday with them. Idc if they're married at that time. They can bring their kids along. 
  • Winter camping. With my future husband of course. I'd really like to do this once in my life. I mean, that's the best season like you can cuddle with your husband in the tent, sharing the warmth lol stahp dearself. But yeah, i like camping. And winter camping sounds fun so let's do that one day, future husband.
  • Hug my favourite animals. This is definitely one of the things i'd like to do since i was born lol exaggeration is okay with me, but anyway, i'd really like to hug panda, koala, kangaroo, and most importantly, tiger and lion. 
  • Being a volunteer at an animal shelter or zoo. I don't know if i'm qualified to do this but yeah, if i'm able to do it, i'd gladly say yes. 
  • Overcome my inferiority complex by taking a lot of pictures. It sounds pretty weird but it's real. I've quite a different nose from everyone else and i've been hating it since i was a kid. When i was a kid, i bumped into steering wheel or something i don't know but there's a reason to why my nose became like this. And my inferiority complex become worse when i have a severe acne problem. Since that day, i took less pictures, even during Hari Raya and mom got really sad seing me like that. I feel sorry for her. Now that my face is better, i'd take a lot of pictures with her, and be confident. And i'll try my best to lessen my nose shading and be confident about my nose either. I should be thankful to have a nose, right? InsyaAllah, i'll try.
  • Random street jamming. I like random things and this is one of them. Maybe i can just like singing with some random band on the street hahahaha idk. But i'd really like to do this one day.
For now, that's all i could think of. Let's pray so that i can fulfill this. If you've the same bucket list then maybe you can tell me and we can do it together. Till we meet again.

Assalamualaikum, zulaikhanurputri ♥