Degree Life

Never thought i'll update about this but then i got to.
Just like i expected, degree life is obviously going to be different from my foundation life. Even if it's at the same place. But then, i don't think i'll hate the change this much.
I mean, i know i'm going to meet and spend time with different people, but life is just too hard nowadays.
The people here are so...  you know, too nice.
Too nice it's hard for me to adjust myself.
I am not a nice person. I repeat, i am not a nice person.
My jokes are too harsh for these people. But it's not their faults anyway.
I'm just saying it's too hard for me. My close friends know how much i'm so straightforward in saying things like i am so mulut main lepas, i don't hide things behind people and things like that.
In other words, I'm used to being harsh and everything that's not nice.
Is this considered as culture shock? Lol i guess so.
And this including the seniors here. They're so kind and nice i don't think i'm nice enough to get close to them since i use harsh jokes towards my seniors as well, as a sign that i'm close with them.
P/s: i miss all the seniors in k13 though.
Like i said, the people around me in my degree life doesn't really mingle with guys while i cannot live my life without having guy friends. Lol that sounds so wrong but you know what i mean if you know me quite well.
I always get those weird looks from the girls whenever i'm talking to guys it's so uncomfortable ok.
Another thing that i'm trying to adjust myself to is living with only one roommate. Before this during my foundation, there are 6 people in one room. So this is kind of hard for me.
Another thing that's obviously different is how busy i am during my foundation life compared to degree.
At this new college of mine, i can't really participate in many things. Like they choose the ajk and everything randomly instead of who's interested to do it.
Meanwhile back in the day, they'll ask who's interested to do this and that's how i'm able to show myself and volunteered and everything.
And here's an interesting fact: i'm not singing anymore.
Well, it's not like i don't want, it's because i can't. This college ban girls from entering singing competition so i don't really know what am i going to do here cause like that's the only talent i have anyway.
I don't do sports, i don't dance, i don't act, so what am i supposed to do?
But still, i'm trying my best to get involved in many activities. 
Pray for me guys, pray for me. I don't know if i can really stand this.

Assalamualaikum, zulaikhanurputri ♥

Bucket List

I bet everyone has their own 'things to do before i die' or you can call it bucket list.
All this while i only think of it inside my head, but never wrote it down so this is my first time.
Maybe you have the same wish like me? Who knows if we can do it together huhu

• Traveling with my mom and my bros. Now that my bros are big enough and can almost hahahahahaha i repeat, almost take care of themselves, i think it is time to go somewhere like maybe Indonesia with them. 
• Backpacking with friends/strangers. I find it quite difficult to plan a holiday with my friends as most of them doesn't get much freedom as i get so i'm okay with backpacking with strangers. It sounds fun though. I mean, you know those backpacking club? Yeah, i can join them but let's talk about that later because i'm still trying my best to plan with my friends. I really want to at least once going on a holiday with them. Idc if they're married at that time. They can bring their kids along. 
• Winter camping. With my future husband of course. I'd really like to do this once in my life. I mean, that's the best season like you can cuddle with your husband in the tent, sharing the warmth lol stahp dearself. But yeah, i like camping. And winter camping sounds fun so let's do that one day, future husband.
• Hug my favourite animals. This is definitely one of the things i'd like to do since i was born lol exaggeration is okay with me, but anyway, i'd really like to hug panda, koala, kangaroo, and most importantly, tiger and lion. 
• Being a volunteer at an animal shelter or zoo. I don't know if i'm qualified to do this but yeah, if i'm able to do it, i'd gladly say yes. 
• Overcome my inferiority complex by taking a lot of pictures. It sounds pretty weird but it's real. I've quite a different nose from everyone else and i've been hating it since i was a kid. When i was a kid, i bumped into steering wheel or something i don't know but there's a reason to why my nose became like this. And my inferiority complex become worse when i have a severe acne problem. Since that day, i took less pictures, even during Hari Raya and mom got really sad seing me like that. I feel sorry for her. Now that my face is better, i'd take a lot of pictures with her, and be confident. And i'll try my best to lessen my nose shading and be confident about my nose either. I should be thankful to have a nose, right? InsyaAllah, i'll try.
• Random street jamming. I like random things and this is one of them. Maybe i can just like singing with some random band on the street hahahaha idk. But i'd really like to do this one day.

For now, that's all i could think of. Let's pray so that i can fulfill this. If you've the same bucket list then maybe you can tell me and we can do it together. Till we meet again.

Assalamualaikum, zulaikhanurputri ♥

Grateful things

Hey yo ssup everyone (who am i kidding there's no one here) lol
So, i've been forcing myself to update my blog since a friend of mine is bored and she doesn't know what to do so she told me to update my blog so that she can read it so here i am.
For the past few days, i've been thinking of what have i been doing all my life and things that i'm grateful in my life.
Firstly, i am soooo grateful that i'm still alive today. Cause you know what, i've been in the depression stage a few years ago and it's so serious that i even think of self harm but no i'm still doing good and i am grateful for that. Thanks to that, my arms are still free of any scars.
But honey, if you ever think of doing it, think again. Think about how to change your life, into something better. I know it's hard, but believe me, things will get better if you work for it.
What did i do? I came out of my room, i ate my favourite foods, i listened to songs, i watched motivational videos, i spent time with my siblings, being with my friends, and that somehow changed me into someone better. I'm not that girl who likes to isolate herself from everyone anymore.
In fact, i'm grateful that i'm so friendly right now that i can even talk to strangers. Yes, i talk to strangers like "hey where are you going?" and yeah, i became a brave person.
Another thing i'm grateful for is my sporting parents. I tend to spend time with my friends a lot so yeah, i go out a lot. If you know me, then you might know that i've so many guy friends, and i tend to go out with them most of the times cause most of my girl friends can't really go out like me. How did i get my mom's trust? I let her know every single friends that i have and i don't lie whenever i wanna go out with them. I know some girls may lie to their parents when they're going out with guys and no that's not a good idea. You must tell them the truth.
At least they'll know that you're being honest with them. If they don't give their permissions, then it's okay. It's not like my mom gives me permission to go out every single time. One day they'll realize that you're big enough to go out with guys. Our parents love us in different ways.
All my life, i've been knowing so many different types of people and i'm so thankful for that too. I don't choose my friends, so i've so many friends with different lifestyles. I've a friend who's a dancer, a friend who's a photographer, even a friend with a drug addiction. And by friends, it could be someone who's older than me, same age as me, or someone who's younger than me. I got this phrase a lot, "zu knows everyone" hahaha and i'm actually happy to hear that. It just shows how flexible i am to befriend with many people. And you know what, because of that, i tend to not judge people a lot (i'm not saying i'm a saint by not judging people at all, but i tend to do that less)
Here's another thing that i am truuuuly happy that i've been through which is; travelling alone.
Okay it's not really traveling alone because i've got my cousin in Japan to take care of me, but i rode an airplane to Japan all by myself when i was 14 years old. I can't even believe it myself but yeah, i did it. But before that i am used to go to my hometown by bus alone and everything so it's not really that weird i guess?
You should try it one day, guys. Riding an airplane all by yourself, getting to know strangers and giving yourself some time alone. The person next to my seat was a teacher from Australia, going to Japan to celebrate Christmas. She's so beautiful. It's nice knowing her but i forgot her name. I even got a selfie with her. During my time in Japan, i got to know many friends of my cousin, and they're so cool for treating me good like their own sister.
Something that i think everyone should be thankful for is; knowing every single person in your life. Be it your friends, ex boyfriend, or your enemies. Every each of them taught you something in life.
What is that? You've to figure it out on your own.
Last but not least, i know some people tend to think of me as someone that's wild, aka liar cause i go out with guys, i go out at nights, but dear, i'm still grateful i never step my feet at a club, or drink alcohols and even smoke, cause i won't let my parents disappointed with the freedom that they've given to me.
If you've done it, then you can repent now, it's okay. Better late than never. But that's not an excuse for you to do it more. Cause i know some of you'll be like "Oh better late than never? Then i'll do it next month. No you know that's not what i mean. Change now. You can do this.
I've decided to be more thankful for everything in my life, and appreciate people even more. I really hope i can get rid of my negativity and live a positive life.

Assalamualaikum, zulaikhanurputri ♥

Skincare Routine

A friend of mine asked me what's my skincare daily routine and when i was trying to explain, she told me to update about it on my blog so that she can always refer to it so here i am, trying my best.
I think there's a lot of people know that before this i got a quite terrible acne problem on my face and now they're reducing thanks to extra care and skin specialist. Yup, if you're having a severe acne problem, you must go to skin specialist to get some medicine or even some advices on how to reduce your acne okay? Go, it's never too late. But sure, you can make an effort by your own first if you think it's a waste to meet them. I know it's quite pricey to meet them but i've tried all sorts of things and it's just not working on my face. You can try the natural ways like egg mask and everything. Don't expect for a fast result. Wait till a few months. Okay i talked a lot. So let's start.

First thing first, cleansing.
The point of a face-washing cleanser is to remove dirt, sweat, and makeup without also completely drying out your skin. Therefore, make sure you clean your face at least two times a day and maximum three times a day. Do not over-washing your face as it might irritates your skin. I'm serious.
And here's another thing about cleansing; choose the right cleanser for your skin. Determine whether your face is normal, dry, combination, oily or sensitive.

• If you have dry skin, look for cream- or milk-based cleansers to keep your oils and prevent further drying. Basically oil-based cleanser.
• For oily skin, a deep cleansing gel or foaming wash will be okay to gently lift away dirt and oil without stripping your skin which could cause it to kick into overdrive and produce more oil, i'm sure you don't want that to happen, right?
• As for combination skin, no you don't have to use both dry and oily skin's cleanser. Instead, try an oil-free wash or gel cleanser.
• People with true skin sensitivity have to use non-lathery, cream cleanser containing mild plant oils. Most importantly, fragrance-free.
• Normal skin don't have to worry about a thing cause most cleansers work on you.

I'm using Liquid Neutrogena deep clean pure mild cleanser. Guess what type of skin i have.
Secondly, apply facial toner.
After using a cleanser with warm water and a washcloth, splash your face with cold water. Then, use toner on your face to complete the cleansing of the skin, and remove sebum produced during the night and to balance your skin's pH. If you're particularly having breakouts, never wear make up but never leave your toner. I mean, always apply toner on your face.
I'm using Neutrogena alcohol free toner and i'm loving it.
Next is moisturizing your face. 
Just like cleanser, there are several types of moisturizer for your face but don't worry cause most of the times, it is stated on the packaging itself.  Here's one fact about moisturizer. If  you have an oily skin, then you might want to skip the separate moisturizer since sunscreens already add moisture to your skin because of their ingredients. If you have to put both on, apply SPF first and let it settle before you put on your lotion or cream.
I use Neutrogena oil-free moisture for combination skin and yeah i like it. So much. 
After that, protect. Put some sunscreen and protect your skin from the heat. If you have an oily face, avoid using sunscreen with the spf over 50 since it will somehow make your face more oily and thus, again the pimples. 
I use Neutrogena ultra sheer dry-touch sunscreen with the spf 50 cause my face is not that oily and yeah i only use it if my skin is extremely dry.
Last but not least, exfoliate.  
Exfoliation involves the removal of the oldest dead skin cells on the skin's outermost surface. You can do this like for three times a week but you must do this at least once a week. This is so that your pores won't get clogged and thus the pimples. I used to think I'm too sensitive for a scrub. And since i'm acne-prone, a peel just seems insane. But exfoliation can benefit every skin type.
For those with sensitive skin, try lactic acid based cleanser or mask.
Sensitive skin and dry skin tend to be quite similar, so lotions with low strength alpha-hydroxy acids can also be used for mild exfoliation.
As in oily skin, you can use an exfoliating clay mask.
Remember! Never use body scrubs on the face. They're too rough.

Tips for today: which one to put first? Think of your skin as a sponge, and apply the one that will absorb first based on the texture. Goodluck on getting a better skin, girls! Guys you can try this too, you know. It's not wrong to take care of your face. If you want to ask a question, you can ask me on ask.fm/zulaikhanuputri.
Assalamualaikum, zulaikhanurputri ♥

English

Yup, i speak in english a lot, in this blog and in twitter too.
It all started with twitter when suddenly a few years ago i've got some friends from overseas.
They're not Malay, of course.
How i got to know them, through social networks. Most of them are from the same fanbase as me. What is fanbase? Hmmm you can say a fan club.
Talking about english, yup i'm not that good at it. Like i often make some mistakes and all that.
But honey, all that matters is people understand what you're trying to say.
It's not even your first language. But learning to strengthen your english is important too.
I know a lot of people are scared of speaking in english because they're scared of being laughed at when they make mistakes. I really wish they don't. Be brave and speak whatever you want to speak.
But remember! Don't ignore or get mad when people's trying to correct your grammar or english.
I've so many people like this in my life. I mean, when i tried to correct them, they'll get mad at me and ignore me. Nowadays i don't feel like correcting people anymore. I know it's wrong but it hurts, you know.
You're trying to do a good thing but then people get mad at you.
So i really hope you're not one of them. Try to accept it with a big open heart.
You can even learn new language if you want to, other than english.
Well for me, i'm learning a bit of korean language as it'll be easier for me to watch korean videos without the english subtitles because waiting for people to make the subtitles for the videos can be tiring sometimes.
Back to the topic, don't be scared to use english and learn new things.
It might help you in the future though. I'm always rooting for you. Never give up guys! 
"Bahasa Melayu dimartabat, Inggeris diperkasa."

Assalamualaikum, zulaikhanurputri ♥

MGP '16

I miss this so much! MGP stands for Malam Gemilang Putra. This picture is a picture of me, my duet partner and the band for the dinner. Gotta say the biggest performance i've ever done and yes, it was exciting yet full of challenges.
So i performed two times. The first performance is with the guy wearing spectacles, named Barber. Not his real name of course. And the second one is with the girl named Annis.
It was hard for me because that girl was so good at expressing the song through her face and yes she's confident with her voice. And i'm the opposite of her.
Can you understand how burdening it was for me?!
Hahahaha whatever it was all in the past anyway and Alhamdulillah i didn't get any critics after the performance. But i did get emotional during practice a few times.

The second performance was with this band. Yup, there were two bands. I don't really interact with these guys cause it was awkward. Annis was closer with these guys rather than the other band while i feel closer to the other band.

Last but not least, my roommates. From left, Karina, Raihan, Shahirah and me. Aainaa's missing.
Thanks girls for waking me up every morning, afternoon, evening. Till we meet again next time.

Assalamualaikum, zulaikhanurputri ♥

Dream Job

People often asked us when we're younger,
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
For me, an actress. Why?
Because actor and actress can experience living as someone else. Even if it's just for a short of time, they can live all sorts of life.
Of course, my ambition now has changed.
But until now, whenever i look at those actor and actress, i can't help it but to feel envious of them.
I know it might be hard for them since to act well is not that easy. But i think that's actually the best part.
When the dramas and movies came out, and people are satisfied with your acting.
I think that would be the best feeling ever. Well at least that's what i think as a viewer.
Whenever i watch a drama and fully immersed in it, i could imagine how proud i must be when my hard work finally paid off.
Well the purpose i'm writing this is because in life, there must be a dream job for everyone. A job which you wish you can do. But like me, there are times when those dream can only be a dream as we need to face reality.
I can't act. Speaking the truth right here. So a job as an actress will always be a dream for me.
But don't think that you can't find another job that you can enjoy doing it.
Cause honey, it's all about your mind.
Sometimes there are things that we need to let go in life.
No matter what, you need to live your life. A reminder to myself too. Till the next post.

Assalamualaikum, zulaikhanurputri ♥